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Friday, March 27, 2009 @ Friday, March 27, 2009

Never felt so useless and wasted in my entire life before. It’s so frustrating that you cannot take care of yourself and you need to intrude into other people’s life just so the your basic everyday needs can be meet even though the person is someone close to you and you know that he or she will not mind the extra work or chore. But it me mad that a person of my own age and physic still have to bother someone who have already spent half of their life trying to make a comfortable life for you to help you to the toilet, feed medicine or even just to make sure that you are comfortable and not in pain in the middle of night. It really make my heart ache every time another word of encouragement came rushing out of their mouth. It makes one regret all the decision that you have made against them before and you really want to apologise to them about all the wrong things you have done in the past and tell them just how much you love them and how much they mean to you. And you want to shout that without them in this world you would not be who you are and you may not be able to accomplish what you already have. They guide me through the deepest time of my life and never once thought of giving up on me. Its make me sick that at this point of time it is still they taking care of me. It makes me hate myself so much more…